No Vlog Today..

I decided against vlogging today because I can barely get myself to speak words, much less do it in front of a camera.

To begin, my sleeping schedule has been heavily reliant on Kayleigh’s schedule. She has been going to bed later and later — it has been getting so ridiculous that we didn’t get to bed until after 3am the last two nights in a row. What used to be 10am starting our day is now 12pm and 1pm starting our day. This is not what I intended us to turn into.

I have prevented her from naps, tried to keep her energized throughout the day.. but so far nothing is working. I am frazzled enough from the moving and having to make do with life that doesn’t stop whilst sealing my entire life into cardboard boxes. This just makes things so much harder.

Aside from starting my day off incredibly late, I was completely immersed with the tragic events that took place on post this afternoon. It consumed my entire day, watching live newscasts online and keeping up with the breaking news.. to the point that I didn’t even realize I should probably get my day started until it was already 5pm. I missed my opportunity to go to the post office and I totally failed at getting my yoga done (I prefer to work out before my sis and bro-in-law get home from work).

Disappointed in myself already, I decided to get whatever packing done that I could. I completed another third of the kitchen (carefully wrapping fragile items is the most time consuming) as well as about a fourth of my wardrobe. I don’t even know.. I have nine packing days left and I’m not sure if I feel ready.

At this point, my next goal is to try to get to bed before 3am. I want to reclaim my mornings.. and I’m afraid it might take something drastic.